In order to find something, I've gotta look.

I really enjoy elements of my job, and I certainly get along well with my boss and coworkers. The problem is, the money just isn't there, and the benefits certainly are NOT there, either. Leaving a job you enjoy isn't easy, and it makes it hard to get motivated to look for a different (hopefully better paying) job, too. I need to do it though, if I ever hope to do more than live from paycheck to paycheck.

Going back to school would be nice, but frankly I don't think that finding a better paying job will ever provide me with the means for going to school: There is the day-to-day expenses while working a job that you need to pay for, making saving for school difficult. If I were to save up enough to go to school (spare $25,000 for 4 years anyone? ...Anyone?) then there is the day-to-day expenses that you need to pay for while in school, and finding a job that pays well enough to pay for that while you are in school is very hard.

School or not, I need to find something that pays better.

...and that means looking. Bleah. I hate looking. It seems like I just did that.


-'Mad

The music of Black Happy

Back in the 90's, the Seattle music scene was where it was happening. There was a band that came out of Coeur D' Alene, Idaho named Black Happy that was probably the best and most original band to emerge during that era. They didn't really last long, but they were great. The band had 9 members: 2 drummers, 2 guitarists, a bass player, 2 trombonists, a saxophone player, and the lead singer. The lead singer's name was Paul Hemenway, who I have heard is now a minister in the midwest. (I don't know if that's true or not, it's just what I have heard. Considering that they were a rather religious group, I wouldn't be surprised at all.)

Their music was simply great: different, uplifting (rare in music anymore) and very well done. I really miss them, and wish my CDs of their music weren't stolen. I had 4 CDs: Friendly Dog Salad, Peghead, The Last Polka, and an album made by 4 of the members after the band broke up called Shoveljerk. I wish I could find them again.

A few lyrics from the song The Life and Times of...

I'm just walkin down the street singin' that same old song
I've sung a thousand times before, I know the verse
I know the chorus, I even know the part before
It's called we're gonna' even the score


And a few Lyrics from the song Home...

So many things have changed in my short life
that I thought would always be there
Yet when all that passes by my eyes none of it
will come as a big surprise, I'm expecting it
To tell the truth I know that when my eyes are closed
and shut again I'll be happy that way

Cause if I don't know where I'm going
if I don't know where I've been
maybe you can show me now
can you tell me how
I'm going home

Blerg

We moved to Pocatello to go to school. That goal is further than ever right now. I found out that ISU is raising tuition 10% and lowering all budgets by 11%. We are both working full time and living paycheck to paycheck. We are still unable to afford things like basic medical care. Jobs are scarce in this town, so looking for a better paying job isn't working.

Something needs to change, but I don't know what or how.


-'Mad